Separated Away - #UndeliveredLetter

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Separated Away #UndeliveredLetter

Bagian Kedua #UndeliveredLetter

Bagian Pertama #RefleksiDuaDekade : Promises

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life
it goes along.

as same as long-ring-long-land.

it strikes.

as same as the strikes of a clock.

arrived.

the machinist switching off.

the train slowly resting.

the crowd are exiting.

with exciting feeling.

they’re.

they are happy.

they are welcomed.

they run into a chemical reaction.

named “love”.

meanwhile.

i got stuck.

not only to where i stand.

not only to where our hands met.

just got stuck in nowhere

how.

how could this happen?

how much more do i have to lose?

how many more pains do i have to suffer?

to meet your sweet cheeks, just once again?

regret.

where did you come from!?

is this what regret means?

or should i call you a ‘wall’?

cause you separated us away.

ringing.

the machinist back to the seat.

turning on the machine.

just preparing to the next destination.

through the snowflakes.

frozen.

still.

still.

still.

still have frozen mind.

decided.

stepped out.

decided to moving on

melt the frozen.

shocked the flying bird.

long.

back to routinity.

back to old-mind.

could erase the scratched pencil.

couldn’t erase the old-memories.

sometimes.

i walk back to yesterday.

and always your umbrella.

who covers up me.

from those heavy rain.

~10^oc

kids are making big-ball outside.

cheerfully.

me just drinking coffee.

stressfully.

cold.

wear jacket.

that we had bought together.

went outside.

to shift that burden.

seek.

the broken streetlamps .

the building by roads.

the newspaper in every corner.

told to stop searching the fragments of you.

drop.

a faint clap of thunder.

perhaps rain.

it started to rain.

tearing the skin.

home.

surfing the internet.

found my old tumblr.

an undelivered letter.

from a 16-fallen-boy.

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“i am in love with rain.

i am in love with the song.

that i had been sang alone.

it said.

everyday,

i tell myself.

i’ll confess you today.

then  i see you.

i remember i’d never be good enough.

for someone as amazing as you.

if i stand too close.

i might fall in.

but if i'm too far gone.

i'll never win.

so then,

i just drown in unforgivable sins.

cause into you.

is a biggest mistake i have ever made.

with this clouded sky,

with the sun hiding among the clouds,

i decided to keep feeling to myself,

because i know that no one will understand."

..then confess my love to rain.